It's Going Well, Not really

          After a long wait, a lot of Patience & Time(Destiny Players will understand), i may have fallen in deep regards still with that particular woman whom i met in late February at a Chinese New Year celebration hosted by my dear friend Lionel and his family. Regarding my last post, to break the bonds of acquaintanceship, and usher a more closer and friendlier relationship, perhaps even romance. But not to break the bonds of moral, of course. Regarding that, i may have gotten a worse status. My confession was not really understood that night. Even so, i have manage to contact her through social media, but alas there was no reply, for weeks. I had high hopes.

          Her name shall not be mentioned. Only the fact that she is particularly an animal person, preferably dogs, specifically the big ones, very specifically, Golden Retrievers, and Alaskan Malamutes. Quite frankly, i happen  to be more of a cat person, even then i rarely have any chances meeting a dog that trusts me. My neighbours' dogs are more to guard dogs. Vicious and playful.. They always scare the shit out of me, everytime. Okay pulling away from the Canine and Feline civil war. 

          Well it's been 2 months since i last talked to her in person, also same time i confessed. ouch. In other words, it's painful enough to know you're stupid. Honestly, i love her voice. She can really sing, darn well. Gave me goosebumps. The more "lonely night romantic songs" like "I know Im Not The Only One" by Sam Smith, or "Thinking Out Loud" by Ed Sheeran. Brings a tear to the eye, adding the sensation of light and cheerful. A mellow feeling. Almost felt like doing a duet with her, but i remembered something, i suck with the microphone, unless it's public speaking. But every time Sam Smith's voice comes in, i imagined her singing. Always lovely tune. Powerful, Deep, and meaningful.

          As i am currently typing this blog nearing almost 1 AM Malaysian Time, i am empty, being a barista is awesome and all(aside from the usual human stupidity) but i need to see her again. Adding to my frustration, and misery, recently i just got dumped in the most painful way i can see.. Imagine being close to your high school nemesis, eventually you both matured and became friends. Eventually got close, very close, started dating blah blah blah. AND THEN ONE DAY. YOU HEARD HER SAYING TO HER CRUSH BACK IN HIGH SCHOOL THAT SHE HATES ME. One thing, of all the other things, you could just tell me. But you decide to stab me behind the back and leave me bleeding. Life is great when you're being used. *sarcasm detected*

          All in all, i should have just stayed with the person i met in February. Even if it kills me slowly. That concludes all for now. So, goodbye, and i'll see you starside

         Per Audacia Ad Astra.

          (Through Boldness through the stars)