It's Going Well, Not really

          After a long wait, a lot of Patience & Time(Destiny Players will understand), i may have fallen in deep regards still with that particular woman whom i met in late February at a Chinese New Year celebration hosted by my dear friend Lionel and his family. Regarding my last post, to break the bonds of acquaintanceship, and usher a more closer and friendlier relationship, perhaps even romance. But not to break the bonds of moral, of course. Regarding that, i may have gotten a worse status. My confession was not really understood that night. Even so, i have manage to contact her through social media, but alas there was no reply, for weeks. I had high hopes.

          Her name shall not be mentioned. Only the fact that she is particularly an animal person, preferably dogs, specifically the big ones, very specifically, Golden Retrievers, and Alaskan Malamutes. Quite frankly, i happen  to be more of a cat person, even then i rarely have any chances meeting a dog that trusts me. My neighbours' dogs are more to guard dogs. Vicious and playful.. They always scare the shit out of me, everytime. Okay pulling away from the Canine and Feline civil war. 

          Well it's been 2 months since i last talked to her in person, also same time i confessed. ouch. In other words, it's painful enough to know you're stupid. Honestly, i love her voice. She can really sing, darn well. Gave me goosebumps. The more "lonely night romantic songs" like "I know Im Not The Only One" by Sam Smith, or "Thinking Out Loud" by Ed Sheeran. Brings a tear to the eye, adding the sensation of light and cheerful. A mellow feeling. Almost felt like doing a duet with her, but i remembered something, i suck with the microphone, unless it's public speaking. But every time Sam Smith's voice comes in, i imagined her singing. Always lovely tune. Powerful, Deep, and meaningful.

          As i am currently typing this blog nearing almost 1 AM Malaysian Time, i am empty, being a barista is awesome and all(aside from the usual human stupidity) but i need to see her again. Adding to my frustration, and misery, recently i just got dumped in the most painful way i can see.. Imagine being close to your high school nemesis, eventually you both matured and became friends. Eventually got close, very close, started dating blah blah blah. AND THEN ONE DAY. YOU HEARD HER SAYING TO HER CRUSH BACK IN HIGH SCHOOL THAT SHE HATES ME. One thing, of all the other things, you could just tell me. But you decide to stab me behind the back and leave me bleeding. Life is great when you're being used. *sarcasm detected*

          All in all, i should have just stayed with the person i met in February. Even if it kills me slowly. That concludes all for now. So, goodbye, and i'll see you starside

         Per Audacia Ad Astra.

          (Through Boldness through the stars)

Opportunity to win or an Opportunity to make myself a fool

Gotta start blogging more often...

 

Anyways, so today(as I am blogging this it's at 6AM in the morning of 27th of June of 2015. So today Lionel, has invited me for a Birthday party today. And I have yet to confirm my availability... But one peculiar person will be coming.. I repeat.. Will be coming. And yes that person is a she..

 

Long story short, from what I know about her.. 15 going 16, animal lover, specificall canines, specifically The Alaskan Malamutes. Responsible, sensible, and An ABSOLUTE KILLER VOICE 😍 . One thing that really reeled me in. As a first impression. A simple girl. With moderate taste. Will not mention her name.. Only the initials. TAL.

So I'm hoping I WILL FINALLY CONFRONT HER . Yes I used confront. Instead of confess.Using confession seems cliché. So ... I might be honoured into a path which I would be very happy with. Or friend zone. Or worse... Strangerzoned. So nervous

Jolene has left the family.

Over the past 6 months I have been working in Starbucks Coffee Company, that's almost half a year.. Manage to get in and be working comfortably with the others . For these 6 months, it was somewhat both thrilling and heart aching experience, from what I learnt so far. If you get attached to someone too much . When they leave you. It hurts.

 

Today marks my 6th month officially as an employee or shall we say barista, and yesterday was my saddest experience so far to be working here. We are a good family, kinda, but it's something. Assholes in the group, they exist, I usually brush themm off as pests. But yesterday my favourite person which I am proud to call my partner .. Has left us, I understand her responsibility to keep moving forward through her education years. But I have grown too attached to her persona.. Always over-reacting. But eventually turns down to that face she always makes... I'm always glad if I was at Drive Thru POS with her as my secondary. Or better as my DTO or my DTR whichever is better... Regardless.

 

Without her I would have quit Starbucks a long time ago... Because I cannot cope with the hypocrites working there, it's highly intoxicating. But I managed, and due to the new noobs joining, it's nice to teach for once. Poor ol' saps can't even tell the different between a latte and a cappuccino. Well that's where I am there to help.

 

Without her, that annoying day I usually would have to due to a fallout with my family members(which happens alot these days) usually she would cheer me up. I look forward everytime I am with the same shift as her.. Even when my least favourite person is there.

 

Without her, working at Starbucks would be. A bit of a bore. Oh the constant teasing. Those moments cherish I will.

 

The fact that she has a boyfriend really is painful. So it's rather complicated at first... Now she's a beneficial friend. For which I will never have the privilege to work with again.

 

Jolene, if you're ever reading this, I thank you for helping me all this while. Even on your last day, you made my day by cheering me up.

Goodbye, my dearest friend. Until we meet again

 

Life as A Barista @ Starbucks

IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I LAST BLOGGED.. DAMN I'll make it short and simple.. Then, my high school days are done. Now I'm waiting for my results to be released. So at the moment.. Yeah the title says it all.. IM A BARISTA WOOHOO It's been more than a month working @ Starbucks.. In a Drive Thru store. Working full time.. Salary is so worth it. Still uncertain of my future in Starbucks.. I may stop. Or I may continue as a side career.. Working while studying to support my personal financial needs.. Working experience so far is great. New people meeting every day. Seniors are great. Some of em. Others can be a complete ass. Store Manager is nice. Other managers are mixed in nice and total dicks... But benefits as an employee pays off the negativity(most of it) So the job is a blessing.. The only flawed thing is.. Some dickhead seniors and manager.. And my co-worker.. Is cute. Alas, she has a boyfriend.. So that sucks. But I got payed after the month. So that's nice. Would have been nicer if my classmate could join.. Somehow selection is so damn slow... Ignorant bastards